Where to begin? I think the last time I wrote about school, I was still just in the beginning days of first semester—struggling to simply figure out what I was supposed to be doing. Thankfully, I have developed more of a routine since then, but it has definitely been a learning process—figuring out which things work and which don’t, and learning how to handle Dominican high school students.
Some things I’ve learned:
- High schoolers are intimidating—especially when many of them are taller than you.
- Grading papers is the LEAST fun activity. Ever.
- High school students talk WAY too much. To any of my high school teachers, I apologize if I ever talked in your class. I feel you.
- Students come up with really sneaky ways of cutting corners on assignments and projects.
- However, teachers naturally adapt and develop special powers for sensing these sorts of shenanigans.
No, but really, I have been stretched in so many ways over this past year.
Through this experience, I have come to better understand who I am and what my passions are. God has confirmed in my heart a passion for working with high schoolers in some capacity. I’ve enjoyed getting to know my students this year. I’ve learned that I don’t have to be the type of leader to them that is wild, super funny, crazy, and outgoing; because sometimes kids just want somebody they can sit down and talk with—someone who will listen, even if all they have to say is how cute Zac Efron is. Finding the line between teacher and friend is very difficult, especially in such a social culture. I’ve been fortunate to establish some really great relationships with some of my students—even though it has not been easy and it has cost me some sleepless nights and tears. Yet, this only confirms to me that I am where I am supposed to be for now, even if I don’t understand why at times.
Also, I think God has given me a passion for helping people develop a love of learning—teaching them that knowledge doesn’t always come from a book and that what they are learning in school isn’t just teaching them math and science, but that it has the power to instill in them a sense of amazement, curiosity, and desire to continue learning through all their experiences in life. Getting them to change their perspectives on this has been difficult, especially when it comes to reading. Most of my kids are self proclaimed “Book haters.” My goal this year has been to teach them to view books as a tool to open their minds to the world around them, instead of as a tool to pass a test—teaching them how to think, not simply know.
I have also come to realize that teaching as a classroom teacher isn’t necessarily the way I am gifted to teach these things. How then do I go about doing this? I’m not quite sure yet, but it has become pretty clear over this past year that I do not see myself being a classroom teacher for the rest of my life—though, I guess, God could always have other plans. I would still very much love to serve kids and teens in some educational aspect, but what that will look like, I am not sure. I do plan to continue here at JCS next year, but my job description may be changing. JCS, as a school, is going through a lot of changes, with the hopes of making the school better—changes which began with the hiring of a new director in January. I am excited about these changes, but it means that everything is kind of up in the air. I may be teaching high school again next year, but there may be other opportunities available as well. Please be praying for wisdom and discernment the next few weeks as the administration makes these crucial decisions and for patience for me as I wait to find out what I will be doing next year.